Happy Mothers Day!
To all the mom’s out there – Happy Mother’s Day!
This isn’t just for the mom’s but also everyone that is a mom figure. To everyone that is a mom to be. To those that encountered a loss. You all deserve to be recognized and loved. Not just today of course, but a little extra “I love you’s, I see you’s and you are important’s”.
I am a mom of three. My oldest is 20 years old and lives far too far away from me. I am not a fan of this, but he is happy and thriving where he is.
My other kids are 15 and 11. We are thick into the pre-teen and teen attitudes in this house. Not going to lie, it isn’t my favorite, but I do enjoy it a lot more than those toddler years! Ironically, the attitudes are the same.
Mother’s Day is not a big deal in my house. I cannot remember the last time that this day was actually celebrated by more than my family saying the words. Sometimes my husband would grill for me, but if he wasn’t home, it was just like another day.
I used to cry. I used to get frustrated. I used to get jealous. Seeing posts by friends about their days- going out to brunch, flowers, gifts. It was used to be hard to see when I felt the void of the day in my own life.
This year it looked more different than ever before. Not because anything changed with the ‘things’ but because of the other circumstances of my life.
That is okay.
This is a part of my self-growth journey. I am in charge of my own happiness.
Instead of focusing on the negative and sulking on the couch, I chose self-fulfillment.
I started with making my kids help me clean the house. I was going to make them go shopping with me because mama wants another pair of shoes but the idea of getting everyone fully dressed and ready to go into public became an overwhelming feeling. That is okay.
I am going to make the back-up dinner tonight, because not going into town means I couldn’t go to Costco to get steaks, so homemade crunch wraps it is (honestly, so much better than the real ones- sorry not sorry Taco Bell).
I will end my night with restorative yoga, maybe a hot bath with my favorite magnesium salts, my current favorite coping show, and reading my bible.
When my mom was alive, I would make her dinner, or we would make it together. Whatever she was in the mood for and wanted. I had 37 years of Mother’s Day’s with her. Not having her is still hard, but not like it used to be. My son was dusting earlier and moved grandma off the table onto the couch, so I had to say “Don’t move grandma! Especially onto the couch where she could fall.” That made me laugh.
Even though I do not have my mom, I do have some amazing women in my life that I would like to take a minute to honor.
To my step-mom – thank you for being a mom to me. I appreciate you and love you. Here’s to another girl’s trip and quite nights on your back porch.
To my Aunt’s K and K – Thank you both for being there for me. Not only the last few years, but my entire life. I spent a lot of time with both of you as a kid and will always treasure those times and memories. I love you both.
To all my friends that are checking in on me- thank you. It means a lot to know that even though we are 300 miles apart, you care and are there.
TO ALL THE MOM’S: You are doing great. You don’t have to be perfect, you just need to show up with your best foot forward. You are enough for your kids. You are seen. You are heard. You are important.
Happy Mother’s Day!